Where has the time gone?! My world has been turned upside down, swelled with love, drowned in coffee and could sleep for the next 6 months.
The most beautiful baby girl came into the world on 28th April. The day I went into labour I felt this overwhelming feeling of ‘I am ready to have this baby’ not the GET THIS THING OUT OF ME feeling but a shift in mindset that I was ready for the next stage of my life.
My body amazed me, the intensity of labour was powerful and all consuming. Handing the control over to my body. My body was in charge and I just was along for the ride, it really was the greatest thing I have ever done. I loved my labour and I said I’d do it again tomorrow’, while praising the staff at Warragul Hospital, pretty sure I was talking a million miles an hour pumping full of adrenalin telling each of them how awesome they were.
The moment my Ivy Belle was placed on my chest, life was changed forever – Kirk, Ivy and I were now a family. Kirk my partner was an absolute legend during labour, we joked that he was my coach for a boxing match, squirting water into my mouth, praising my efforts and then sending me in for another round of punches…..or contraction. Watching him fall in love with his daughter and become the most loving father has been such a beautiful experience.
With possibly the healthiest pregnancy anyone could wish for and the best labour any new mum could dream of. Just like that, I was now a Mum!
Well! Lets see how the next few months panned out.
Ever heard of sleep deprivation? I thought I knew it! I really did. My saving grace has been my mothers group, a group of strangers bonding over how tired and overwhelmed you are, those vague disjointed conversations as you can barely string an adult conversation together. I don’t think I would have gotten through those early months without those women.
We developed the equation of sleep deprivation:
Less than 3 hours of sleep is ‘on the edge of insanity’
Between 3-6 hours is ‘tired but bearable‘
6 hours+ you’re living the dream!
I remember realising around 4 months that I hadn’t slept longer than 2 hours at a time for 4 months. How am I even standing!?
Some nights are better than others but with breastfeeding your the one food source it wasn’t easy but coming up to 6 months of exclusive breastfeeding it is SO worth it! With every struggle that we’ve had, to know that we’ve overcome it and still going strong. I can’t help but high five my little one and say ‘Go team!’
My body after pregnancy and birth recovered well but I underestimated how important it is to give your body the rest and time it needs. Thinking I was fine to jump back into exercise then, my beautiful Physiotherapist friend kept things in perspective for me. Walking daily was vital for me, blowing out those cobwebs. Rain, hail or shine I would make the effort to simply get out of the house. Ivy would sleep in the carrier, I would intensely listen to a nerdy science podcast with a take-away coffee in hand and I’d forget I had a baby strapped to me.
I have loved my babymama pilates with Studio Samsara, slowly getting my core back and walking around town chin wagging with beautiful mummas who are having their 2nd, 3rd babies. Sometimes even a cry, and saying ‘I don’t know why I’m crying!’
Also Active Mums at Voyage Gym, Jes and Kim run a great program for mums. Being included in the community programs. Special mums who are there for the teary moments and the triumphant ones too, which sometimes happened in the one morning. Sharing the experiences with new friends that you know are going to be there for a long time. An experience like this bonds you to all new mums, with the simple phrase ‘Oh my God! Me too!’
Just like that 6 months has flown by and I’m starting to take new appointments now, fitting around sleeps and feeds which are finally becoming more predicable. Life is coming to the new norm, I look at her little face and think what did I do to deserve such a beautiful perfect little girl?
Something right along the way, Im guessing.